"After all this time?" "Always"

"After all this time?" "Always," said Snape.

I once was a fool for letting you go and now I'm a fool for didn't let you come back.

 I don't know what to write. It's like everything's messed up in my mind. I want to write it all, but I just don't know where to start. So, I'll try to 'just write', cause I don't think that I can do any better.

Well, today I am a birthday girl. Yep, this is my 18th birthday. There's nothing special 'bout today. Just some cheery friends and some 'happy birthday' thingy. Well, appreciate that.

So, actually I've been waiting for this day since the end of the previous month. I hopefully wish that he will send me a happy birthday text, as always. I already planned to have a long convo with him 'cause I swear this time I will reply all his text and I won't cut it all. But I guess this is how Karma is work. When I planned and I kept make promises in my head that I won't let any chances gone, well, it didn't work as well as what I hope. He didn't even send me a birthday greetings.

Well, in one side it breaks my heart so much (even though I keep seeking reasons for defending him). And in the other side, it makes me realize that maybe it's just how it meant to be. We couldn't meet each other. I meant, if we were lines, both of us is drawn parallel, equal, in the same direction. So, it doesn't matter how long we were drawn for, both of us couldn't meet at the same point. 

I keep thinking on my head if you still love me or not. I realize that we're separated too far away. We couldn't stuck in past, we both have our own new world. So I start to think maybe it's the time to make a move, to decide, to choose, to forget...

It won't be easy at the beginning, I know. I meant to really really really forgetting all about him... That's too complex. Even my tears fell down when I saw him taken a photo with a girl (she's sweet though), just the two of them in a frame, with a really close space... I'm glad that I could hold my tears and didn't cry like a baby :)

Since we met, it's the first birthday which I didn't received birthday greetings text from you, so I guess here is where our story ends. It's over today. Bye, love :)